Sunday, August 29, 2010

08:32am Sat 28.Aug.2010

bru lpas main dota kt gg. main garena. lwn team AEON.VinX.MuFc. 1st game depa kna tapau trok2. wong pnya ursa mengganas. qop pn bleh jd bodo gan ursa wong. ahaha. lawak btoi. 2nd game kami kalah. tp yg tk puaih ati, si AEON.VinX.MuFc ni ckp kami MH sb time tu dia main puck. dia buat manta style + amek illusion kt longkang so ada 5 ekor puck kt situ. wong secara tk sengaja ter-attack puck yg btoi pnya. dh wong ckp tu hero btl, aku trus hex la. then kami kna maki trus. wtf? "nasib" org yg tkda nama, suma ckp MH. "nasib" org yg ada nama, org ckp pro. FUCK OFF! la ni botak dh kna cap MH kt room cw2. ahahaha padan muka hg. btw, kami sedang praktis utk tournament yg akan datang kt penang. wahh, excited nih. tournamaent yg kedua bagi aku. ahaha

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

09:43pm Wed 25.Aug.2010

time ni aku bru abeh smayang terawih kt umah anak2 yatim. btw, td aku bkk posa kt situ. hm, kesian gila aku tgk bdk2 tu. kecik2 dh kna ddk umah anak yatim. dhla nk dekat raya, aku tktau la cmna depa nk enjoy hari raya depa tu tnpa mak n ayah. time aku kt sana, bnyk kali kot aku nk nangeh tp aku tahan jgk. haha, tk macho btoi kn? tp nk bt cmna, dh aku jenih sensitif. =P

tgh ari td aku balik umah nk amek baju melayu. yala, nk p bkk posa kt umah anak yatim kn? memba2 suma pkai baju melayu, tkkan aku nk pkai t-shirt plak kot. hm, time aku balik tu, aku tgk mak aku tgh tidoq so aku tkda la nk risau sgt. mybe letih dok melayan budak. then tok aku panggey aku. tok aku ckp mak aku sakit. time tu aku jd susah ati gila. aku tnya mak aku ok ka dak, mak aku ckp demam ja. hm, mak aku slalu cmni. bila sakit apa2, asyik2 ckp demam. hm, aku tnya la mak aku dh amek ubat ka dak lg. mak aku ckp dh amek, p gan kak aku kmarin. mak aku ckp, sb mkn ubat la mak aku tk larat nk bgn. tp tahla. aku 50-50 ja nk pcaya ka dak sb sblum ni mak aku tk penah jd cmtu kot.

aku takut jd apa2 kt mak aku. aku nk enjoy ari raya gan mak aku. aku nk tnjuk kt mak aku yg aku akan brjaya 1 ari nnt. aku nk balas jasa mak aku. aku bnyk trhutang budi gan mak aku. aku syg mak aku sgt2 :(

yaaaaaa, aku dh besar. tp aku tkleh brdikari lg. nk brdikari cmna, duit pn mntk kt mak lg n bila ada masalah sikit ja aku nangeh. hm. tk jantan btoi kn? hm, dlm post yg lepas2, aku ada ckp yg aku bnyk berfikir mcm2 bnda kn? tp serious ckp, aku tk pnah terpikir ttg ni n la ni bila aku bnyk berfikir ttg masalah ni, aku tktau nk btpa. blur gila kot. hm, skng aku dh tkda sebab lagi nk senyum mcm dlu. mybe klu aku senyum tu, it's just a fake smile.

hm, tktau lah apa masalah aku ni. bnyk sgt masalah. aku dh btl2 serabut la ni. -end-


*tktau nk tulis apa dh. blur.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

boring

i will create a history,
not a glory,
bcos my shoulders are heavy,
what i can say is sorry,

if i a lie can make things change,
i won't use all my strength,
just tears and pain,
it happened again,

this is fate,
that God create,
i'm sure you'll be happy with it,
you always make me sick,

once again i failed,
i can't go anu further,
too much pain awaits,
i must let you go,

everything keep coming my way,
i guess that i'm in the wrong lane.



ahaha inilah salah satu idea mgarut saya bila saya bosang :P

Sunday, August 22, 2010

again and again

the smile that you take,
the promise that you break,
you filled this heart with hates,
isn't great?

no tears for today cry,
i wiped them all dry,
you know that i already try,
i still failed, but why?

i still don't get it,
i try to understand,
but i failed,
yeah, i believe it's a fairy tale,

dream will never come true,
so i have to say this to you,
goodbye for what we've been through,
this is for you,


ini sajalah yg boleh saya merapu. klu ada salah ejaan harap maaf, saya tk educated. haha

Thursday, August 19, 2010

hmm

td aku turun bwh, isap rokok. time aku turun tu aku ada nmpk la sorang apek ni. dia dok tgh kutip kotak(sorry, saya tk racist ok?). hm, aku ni jenis bnyk berfikir, tk kira la pikir yg logik or tk logik. tu mmg hobi aku. time aku tgk dia tu, aku rasa sedih n simpati. serious ckp la, aku ni sensitif sket dlm bab2 ni. hm, time aku tgk apek tu, aku tringat kt mak aku. mak aku penat cari duit wlupn dh tua(ayah dh tkda). yaaaaa, dulu mmg aku suka bazirkan duit. tp skarang tak dh. setelah seselai berfikir bnyk bnda, aku sedar ttg kesusahan mak aku. Alhamdulillah, skarang aku dh tk mcm dlu. aku dh bleh berfikir secara matang wlupn tiap2 ari aku dok bt prangai terhegeh2 kt facebook. kn kwn2 kn? haha. skarang aku dh start smayang balik setelah beberapa tahun aku tk smayang, hina kn aku? dulu aku tk prnh pikir ttg arwah ayah aku kt dlm kubur tu, aku ni anak yg tk mgenang jasa kn? bnyk tahun kot aku tk p melawat kubur ayah aku. hmmm. i'm sorry abah =[

mybe klu ayah aku ada lg skng, aku tk mcm ni. mybe aku tk sebodoh ni. dulu aku tk hiraukn ckp mak aku, aku tk takut kt sapa2 pn kt dlm family aku. aku buat bnda ikut kpala aku sendiri ja. dulu aku tk pnh pikir ttg kesusahan yg orglain tanggung. aku asyik pikir nk enjoy n abiskn duit ja. hmmmm, aku ni anak yg tk brguna kn? tk bt jasa pn kt family.

aritu mak aku nangeh2 dpn aku sb duit tadak nk beli makanan. mak aku ckp, nenek aku bg kt mak aku 2ribu. duit 2ribu tu utk duit blanja klu2 nenek aku meninggal nnt, mak aku la ckp cmtu. tp mak aku dh guna duit tu smpai abeh. suma sb aku gan abg aku. sblum2 ni kami mewah sgt gan duit. time mak aku ckp ttg tu kt aku, aku nangeh. aku rasa mcm aku ni tk brguna n tersangatlah pentingkn diri.

skarang aku dh tk mcm dulu, aku dh pndai berjimat(actually skng duit blanja aku dh berkurang so aku tk boleh mewah mcm dulu). tkpa lah, itu suma dugaan yg Allah bg. aku terima dgn seadanya. skng ni bulan puasa n mak aku tk berduit. aku tkmau mntk apa2 pn raya ni. wlupn aku trpksa "cemburu" dgn kwn2 aku yg bnyk beli baju/seluar baru, aku mmpu tumpang gembira jala. mybe nnt klu ada org nk beli gitar aku, aku blehla beli baju baru. seluar? bundle sudahhhhhh :)


ada bnyk lg aku nk tulis, tp tahla. mcm malas ja. haha

Monday, August 16, 2010

jealous.

td aku saja ja bukak blog bella, adik mastura. lpas tu pic yg plg besar kt blog dia tu pic dia dgn Lamb Of God. wtf? aku mcm tk pecaya ja. so, aku pn selidiklah blog dia. smua ini bkn mimpi, ini satu kenyataan. jeles gila gan bella n nan. meluat aku. dhla dpt VIP pass. grrrr lg brtmbah jeles. haha =P

Sunday, August 15, 2010

09:02pm Sat 14.Aug.2010

bru lpas antaq mira kt uitm. td aku, olen, baun n lan p bkk posa gan mira. haha. tengkiu mira sb blanja kami mkn. awak sgt2lah baik. hahaha wei mira, dlu hg dok kata aku pendek, hg tu besaq aku ja wei. hikk hikk hikkk(gelak kuda). hahaha. kesian kt botak, tkleh ikut. sori ye botak. awak pujuk la cik mira kot dlm msg dhla k? hahaha :P

td lepak, nk kata best tu agak best la. tp nk kata tk best tu bleh la jgk sb tk lama pn kami lepak. smpai merbok, amek lan, amek mira, lpas tu p bkk posa trus. lpas bkk posa, trus antaq mira. tkleh nk melepak lama, tkleh nk tgk mira gelak mcm kuda. hahahaha.

lpas antaq mira, p lepak umah sewa lan n "makbul". "makbul" dok bt pala bz plak, p amek org nu p amek org ni. tkdan nk kata kt dia trok2. haha. lpas lepak kt umah sewa depa, kami trus balik. tk igt la pkui bpa. tp dlm pkui 10:30 cmtu aa.

ada bnyk lg yg aku nk tulis. tp mls. haha. tata

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Rylai quotes.

Crystal Maiden:
"I can help."
"Thats curious."
"Shh, I'm trying to think here.
"What's the plan?"
"I'm no warrior."
"All I ever wanted was to study."
"The currents of magic are in upheaval."
"I pray my father is safe."
"Things are starting to get a little weird."
RESPAWN:
None.
MOVEMENT
"Sounds good."
"I'll check it out."
"Sounds interesting."
"I'll take care of it."
ATTACK:
"I hate resorting to violence."
"You asked for it."
ATTACK HERO:
"For Dalaran!"

Monday, August 9, 2010

=)

every time i look up to the sky after the rain,
i think back to when i was a crybaby,
i was chasing somebodys back blindly,
thinking "i want to be stronger",
the word "thank you" has faded into the wind now,
am i getting stronger?
i don't know the answer yet,
thats why ill keep walking ahead,

so let`s go,
without stopping,
without giving up to the flow of time,
i`ll keep getting back up,
because i don`t want to lose something precious,
the voice inside of me,
keep sustaining me,
wicked rain will get in my way,
but i won`t walk away,
to the future i believe in..

Little Johnny 2.

You must be surprised that I'm writing you today, the 26th of December. Well, I would very much like to clear up certain things that have occurred since the beginning of the month! While filled with illusion I wrote you a letter and I asked for a bicycle, an electric train set, a pair of rollerblades, and a football uniform. I destroyed my brain studying the whole year! Not only was I the first in my class, but I had the best grades in the whole school. I'm not going to lie to you, Santa, there was no one in my entire neighborhood that behaved better than me. With my parents, my brothers, my friends and with my neighbors, I would go on errands and even help the elderly cross the street. There was virtually nothing I wouldn't do for humanity! WHAT BALLS YOU HAVE LEAVING ME A FUCKING YO-YO, A STUPID ASS WHISTLE, AND A PAIR OF SOCKS! WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING, YOU FAT SON OF A BITCH? YOU'VE TAKEN ME FOR A SUCKER THE WHOLE FUCKING YEAR, TO COME OUT WITH SOME SHIT LIKE THIS UNDER THE DAMN TREE. AS IF YOU HADN'T FUCKED ME ENOUGH, YOU GAVE THAT LITTLE SHITHEAD ACROSS THE STREET SO MANY FUCKING TOYS, THAT HE CAN'T EVEN WALK INTO HIS DAMN HOUSE! PLEASE DON'T LET ME SEE YOU TRYING TO FIT YOUR BIG FAT ASS DOWN MY CHIMNEY NEXT YEAR! I'LL FUCK YOU UP! I'LL THROW ROCKS AT THOSE STUPID ASS REINDEERS OF YOURS, AND SCARE THEM THE FUCK AWAY, SO YOU'LL HAVE TO WALK YOUR BIG FAT ASS BACK TO THE NORTHPOLE, JUST LIKE I HAVE TO DO SINCE YOU DIDN'T GET ME THAT FUCKING BIKE, YOU PUNK BITCH!! YOU KNOW WHAT SANTA, FUCK YOU!! NEXT YEAR YOU'LL FIND OUT HOW BAD I CAN REALLY FUCKING BE…YOU'VE BEEN SLEEPING ON A MOTHERFUCKER FAR TOO LONG! SO WATCH YOUR BACK NEXT YEAR, YOU FAT BITCH!
Sincerely, Johnny

Little Johnny 1.

Little Johnny went to his mother demanding a new bicycle. His mother decided that he should take a look at himself and the way he acts.
She said, "Well Johnny, it isn't Christmas and we don't have the money to just go out and buy you anything you want. So why don't you write a letter to Jesus and pray for one instead." After his temper tantrum his mother sent him to his room. He finally sat down to write a letter to Jesus. ******************
Dear Jesus, I've been a good boy this year and would appreciate a new bicycle. Your Friend,
Little Johnny
****************** Now Little Johnny knew that Jesus really knew what kind of boy he was (Brat). So, he ripped up the letter and decided to give it another try. ******************
Dear Jesus, I've been an OK boy this year and I want a new bicycle. Yours Truly,
Little Johnny
****************** Well, Little Johnny knew this wasn't totally honest so he tore it up and tried again. ******************
Dear Jesus, I've thought about being a good boy this year and can I have a new bicycle? Signed,
Little Johnny
****************** Well, Little Johnny looked deep down in his heart, which by the way was what his mother was really wanting. He crumpled up the letter and threw it in the trash can and went running outside. He aimlessly wandered about; depressed because of the way he treated his parents and really considering his actions. He finally found himself in front of a Catholic Church. Little Johnny went inside and knelt down, looking around not knowing what he should really do. Little Johnny finally got up and began to walk out the door and was looking at all the statues. All of a sudden he grabbed a small one and ran out the door. He went home hid it under his bed and wrote this letter. ******************
Jesus, I've broken most of the Ten Commandments; shot spit wads in school, tore up my sister's Barbie doll and lots more. I'm desperate. I've got your mama. If you ever want to see her again, give me a bike. Signed,
You know who
******************

Sunday, August 8, 2010

hero.

you said that you can live for thousand years,
but now you're dying,
how does it feel?
do you need sunlight to warm you up?
it wont make any change,
you still dying,
wipe away your tears,
you should be proud of your past,
you're well known hero,


*tadak idea. haha

06:20pm Tue 2.Aug.2010

like i said, i'll make it "three" and my mission accomplished. so my mtfking fate is not a curse. haha :P

it's my new record. actually i made 2 new records on that day. 1st, i make it "three" and 2nd it's my 1st time i said what i feel inside face to face. sepet, i'm strong isn't it. no tears but agak trsekat2 jgk aa time aku ckp tu kn. hahaha :P

like i said, i'll wait. so whatever happened, i'll keep waiting. it's a promise. don't you ever forget about me ok? i'll wait for you until you're "ready". u understand what i mean right? :)

Saturday, August 7, 2010

baby

i try to get close to you,
even we're just a friend,
you make me happy,
eventhough you cheated on me,

baby, get close to me,
so i can hear you,
baby, i can't lose you,
i'm fucking miss your smile,

is it possible if i say that i want you back?
i'll take anything(everything),
even my life are flying,
thats what my hearts told me,

take a deep breath,
count the minutes down,
waiting for you,
i'm waiting for you..